I woke up this morning with the normal Monday feeling. Dreading the routine, the 8-5, the predictable job, getting back into the gym…not seeing my sweet children and drinking hot tea with Susan every night.
I was in stand still traffic this morning and felt my mind going to wanting to be miserable. I reached over and grabbed my Bible and just opened it and it opened to Psalm 22:5b, “They put their TRUST in the Lord and they were NEVER disappointed.”
Never dissapointed? That seems unrealistic, doesn’t it? I look back over my life, last year, yesterday and it is filled with dissapointment. From big to small things, I can’t count the times in my life I have been dissapointed.
I read this simple scripture over and over this morning. I want this. I want to trust in Him, but how much Trust does this take? It sounds so simple, “those who trust in Him were never disappointed”. The word ‘were’ meant that the writer was looking back and saying, ‘No, I was never disspointed’. I went back to read the first of the chapter and realized it was David that wrote this Psalm. DAVID…who lived as a fugitive because he was being sought after to be killed, who slayed Goliath as a boy, who kept the flock, who had an affair with Bathsheba, a murderer…he wrote this passage.
He though starts out saying, “My God, my God! Why have you forsaken me? Why do you remain so distant? Why do you ignore my cries for help? Every day I call to you, my God but you do not answer me. Every night you hear my voice, but I find no relief”. He had misplaced his trust.
Trust-an individuals placement of confidence in another to fulfill their promise or to be consistent in their policies. The definition of trust.
Sometimes I try to make great promises to me more complicated than they are. I feel like my end of the bargain has to be a lot in order to receive something so great as no disappointment. Because that is how it is with my earthly relationships. I want a good review at work which results in great pay…I have to perform. I want a deep friendship with others that means I have to go deep as well and that is tiresome at times. I want others to be there for me in hard times and that means that I have to get down in the trenches with others. I want to lose weight and feel good that means lunges.
But with Him, with that definition of trust, it is simple. I have to change my perspective. Placing my confidence in Him, not in my performance, not in my abilities to “do good”, not in my circumstances, not in my family, not in my closest friends, not in my government, but Jesus Christ.
1 Corinthians 2:9 For no eye has seen, no hear has heard, and no mind has imagind what God has prepared for those who love Him.
I could imagine my perfect life, everythign that I have dreamed about since I was a little girl, dreams that my parents have for me, the American dream…I could imagine it now and it is exactly what I would ever want. But if I look at this promise even my greatest imagination cannot even begin to comprehend what He has for me. And that makes my moments of doubt disappear.
My trust has been far from wholly His. Hence, my disappointments.
Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus, just to take Him at His word (Ps. 22:5).Just to rest upon His promise (never to disappoint), just to know Thus sayeth the Lord.